HIS FAIRYTALE

2007-03-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing
I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

2007-03-03T00:53:00.000+08:00

well ; just came back from work . pretty depressed ; hahs almost everyday i am feeling that wayy . ii dun know how to describe ; ii am feeling that ii am gonna be a different Zhi Yang soon . someone probably ain't gonna believe in love ; more pessimist ; slowly be engulfed in the darkness . ii am gonna break down anytime ; well ii am not gonna let anyone see me breaking down ; this pain will anyone understand ? haiish .

THOUGHTS .

2007-02-28T14:47:00.000+08:00

hmmms . time really flies ; and it is 2 more weeks to my birthday . many things happened ; although ii know mostly are bad larhs ; but life still has to go on . right now she has left so far away it will be hard to turn back ; but ii know sooner or later ii got to move along ; or remain hurt . she is happy now ii guess ; ii couldn't give the happiness or be as good as him . ii remembered my birthday last yr is pretty sucky ; it is at cruise ; lol . ii have many wishes ; oh well ; can't say out ; if not they may not come true . right now ii am just like walking down in the rain alone at night ; there is lightning ; all the people in their houses are asleep ; nobody see me in the rain . if only there is someone ; someone who would just be in front of me ; taking the umbrella ; asking me and shelter me back to home . that is when my happiness arrived . but when will that day come ? when will ii see the rainbow after the storm ? it seems never ending ; it will never stop raining . and as each day passes by ; ii'm getting weaker and weaker ; and the rain is getting heavier and heavier; drowning me as ii fell into the puddle . ii am getting more and more pessimist ; perhaps ii may no longer be the Zhi Yang you used to know .

WHERE IS MY HAPPINESS ?

2007-02-25T21:36:00.000+08:00

ME AND XIAO KEAI . KEKES . THANKS FOR THE EDIT . ((:

ALWAYS . (:

hmmms it is been quite some time since ii last posted ; well been busy with work and stuffs ; dun wanna post so much about my personal life . it's been one month plus since ii am single ; people keep asking me how am ii gonna start to look for my happiness . or whether ii have found my happiness . yuups no doubt about it ; ii can only walk down the road that is called life ; and slowly ii will find my happiness . ii have been single for three year plus ; will it happen to me again ? guess ii am gonna keep moving forward ; not gonna let the force pull me to loneliness . things sometimes dun go my way ; ii know but what to do ; you don't expect her to come back to you ; a miracle you can only dream for it to happen . not really much to write ; except about the outings with CHIAKI XIAO KEAI and MELVYN . and also about my job from five to two at suntec last night ; ii am working OT because of the eight dollars per hour rate . kekes . (: next week ii will be full ; working five days of bouquet ; may not be online or posting as frequent . guess ii can only go out after next week ? maybe wanna go kenn's house to see his rabbit ; so cute . xx=

I NEED A MIRACLE . SERIOUSLY .

2007-02-22T08:57:00.000+08:00

你们要快乐要紧紧牵手

你们不幸福我会难过

成全最爱的人不是为了看着他寂寞

你们要快乐要天长地久你们没有错

爱是自由

走出这扇门后至少我还有辽阔

你们要快乐要紧紧牵手

你们不幸福我会难过

成全最爱的人不是为了看着他寂寞

37 DAYS OF WAITING ; I LET YOU GO BECAUSE I LOVED YOU TOO MUCH .

2007-02-22T08:53:00.000+08:00

ytd the whole night ii have been thinking hard . thinking about what happened during the periods of waiting for herr ; ii continued as each day passes ; having the hope of having herr to come back to my side ; refusing to remove the knife she stabbed deeply into my heart . it is seven ; my answer is up . I DECIDED TO GIVE UP . 37 DAYS OF WAITING ENDED JUST LIKE THIS ; the last present ii gave to herr was that eeyore toy . ii decided to let her go ; just to hope that she is happy without me ; ii feel that ii am a barrier to their relationship . perhaps what she said about having feelings about me was just part of my wishful thinking . like what others said ; ii was just too naive and foolish for herr . looks like ii'm backk to my own wayy of life ; darkness is what ii'm probably fated forr . ii made the decision ; it is painful but ii know ; she ain't gonna come backk anymore . if ii am gonna continue to wait it ain't gonna make things better ; it just gonna make my pain worse as the knife is still stuck to my heart .

ii realised that loving someone do not necessarily have to have him/her to be with youu ; so long the one you love is happy ; you will feel the same wayy toos . that is love . people who sayy they will love you forever and stuffs ; ii feel that they are too foolish and naive . they dun even know what the future will bring . if you sayy you love a person forever and when you found out he/she is playing with youu all along ; will you stick to that person forever ? the word 'forever' brings a huge importance ; it means till the day you die . endless .

Well ; ii am here agaiin . all alone agaiin . where do ii head for my happiness ? i'm walking down the road agaiin ; the unknown is there for me . ii have to be prepared for hurt ; lies and deceit . a strong force is pulling me from my happiness ; will ii have the strength to turn back to find my happiness ? Time will tell ; in the meantime ii only have my friends ; my dream ; my family to live for . Guess these few days ii may not post that often ; work and my outside life is making me feel occupied . that is the way to make me numb ? When will ii find my true happiness ? Time will tell . Till then . . . ((:

2007-02-18T07:08:00.000+08:00

SLIP SHOES FOR THE DAY ; I AM THE ODD ONE OUT . =xX

LIFE IS SO SHORT IT IS JUST A DISTANCE AWAY .

IT'S A BIRD . . . NO IT IS A PLANE . . . IT'S ZHIYANG AND KENN . ((:

BROTHERS 184 . ((:

A FEAST OF BROTHERHOOD . ((:

Well ; a picture tells a thousand words . lazy to sayy what we did that dayy ; may not be posting because ii am going to genting tonight . will be back on monday night . zzz . HAPPY CNY everyone ! ((:

2007-02-16T09:05:00.000+08:00

I REMEMBERED THAT DAY ; I WAS BROKEN ; UNLOVED .
WISHING THE DAY COULD BE OVER UPON THE STARS ABOVE .

THEN I SAW A HAND REACHING OUT FOR ME ; IT WAS YOU .
WHO BROUGHT ME LOVE SO BEAUTIFUL I NEVER KNEW .

YOU NEVER DOUBTED MY WARPED OPINIONS ON THINGS LIKE SUICIDAL HATE ;
YOU MAKE ME COMPLIMENT MYSELF WHEN IT WAS TOO HARD TO TAKE .

YOU STAYED BY ME ; WE WALKED DOWN THE PATH HAND IN HAND .
GAVE ME WARMTH ; THINKING THIS LOVE WILL NEVER END .

BUT UNTIL THAT DAY ; YOU SAID LET'S BREAK .
THE THINGS WE HAD JUST FADED ; IT WAS TOO HARD FOR ME TO TAKE .

I BROKE DOWN ; I WONDERED WHY .
MY TEARS JUST DRIPPED INTO MY HEART ; I JUST COULDN'T CRY .

HOWEVER I HAD THAT HOPE ; OF YOU COMING BACK ONE DAY .
' ZHIYANG LET'S START AGAIN ' ; THAT'S WHAT YOU WILL SAY .

BUT THAT WASN'T MEANT TO BE ;
YOU ARE WITH ANOTHER GUY ; IN FRONT OF ME .

I REFUSED TO BELIEVE ; THAT IT WAS TRUE .
THE PAIN I WENT THROUGH ; WHO KNEW .

SHOULD I WAIT OR SHOULD I STAY ?
I'M SO CONFUSED ; I LOST MY WAY .

ALL I COULD DO IS TO WAIT FOR YOU TILL YOU CHANGE YOUR MIND ;
REMEMBER ME ; I'M ALWAYS BEHIND .

I LOVED YOU ALL ALONG .

31 DAYS ; STILL WAITING .

2007-02-16T08:37:00.000+08:00

AFTER WORK WAITING FOR MRT TO GO TO HER PLACE . REFLECTIONS . ((:

THE BLOOD I SHED FOR YOU ; CAN IT BRING YOU BACK ?

THE SCAR REMINDS US THAT THE PAST IS REAL .

didn't post for ytd ; ps . too tired and messed up barhs ; never thought of switching on the com . valentine's dayy ytd ; pretty sucky this yr barhs . especially this year hahas . left her the present outside her house ; because nobody answered the door ; so ii just left it at her door handle . she told me about the present ; what a sigh of relief ! thought she didn't receive the present or the present is being taken away by other people or something . xx= after meeting joseph and caine bro at bugis ; we went bugis street for shopping . ii only bought a pair of slip shoes ; with skully designs . thought my father will disapprove ; but he never say anything . phew . nothing much to sayy lerhs ; tomorrow meeting kenn hia di wees . bye peeps ; happy chinese new year in advance . ((:

2007-02-14T02:19:00.000+08:00

VALENTINE'S DAY IS COMING SOON ; SO SIIANS .

peeps are talking about it ;

thinking of what to buy for their adore ones .

some proposed their love to the ones they secretly admired ;

some spent the whole day with their loved ones .

people keep asking me about valentine's day ;

ii said nothing or pretend ii never hear anything .

deep inside my heart ; ii was hurting .

wanna scream ; CAN YOU STOP ASKING ME THIS QUESTION ?

nobody can see the scars ; the pain ii am undergoing through .

ii tried to make you turn back to me ; but did you ?

WHERE IS YOUR HEART ?

HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN EVERYTHING WE ONCE HELD TIGHT TOGETHER ;

THE PROMISES ; THE MEMORIES ;

YOU SHATTERED THEM ALL BY YOURSELF .

I REMBERED WHAT YOU TOLD ME ;

I HELD ON ; WHAT HAPPENED ?

MY LIFE IS STILL IN A MESS ;

YOU LEFT ME SCARRED .

BACK TO DARKNESS .

2007-02-14T02:00:00.000+08:00

didn't post for a long time ; being busy . hahas nobody will be looking anyway ; so many shyt happened . ii went hospital for my checkup ; my low blood pressure may just happen anytime ; and ii may just collapse and faint like that . life is short ; ii have to admit . my handphone bill exploded like fcuk ; one hundred and thirty two dollars ; lol . my hard earned pay have to use to pay for the bill . haven't even settle my expenses ; give half of my pay ; my new handphone . =.=" going to get my ATM card soon ; wees . ((:

09/02/2007 . THE EXCITING MOMENT of my life . after work ; ii went home ; prepared myself into uniform attire ; den went to meet caine and friends for lunch before going back to school for my result . my mother was outside the hall ; monk's hill batch seems to be doing better than us for O's . ii was one of the last few to collect my results ; because of my hair . make me so nervous larhs ; hahas . =xX at last it was my turn ; ii saw my result : ii gort 18 for my L1R4 ; thought ii could have done better . ii was eligible for the audio and visual technology course ; ii dun know whether ii cann go in . tomorrow is the last day for registation for poly courses ; guess ii better stayy at home and seriously consider my choices carefully . my supervisor arranged miie off for today .

went to LIMQI's birthday last sunday ; saw BABY TEARS . nothing much to write down . ((:

2007-02-05T13:13:00.000+08:00

sorrie for the late update guyys . was damn tired ii do not even have the strength to switch on the com to post . so manyy thinggs happened ; my bro gort caught for smoking . almost gort him into many troubles ; my dadd kpkb wan derhs . so is my mum ; all start to give up on us . suspect miie siian ji pua ; dun trust miie dun be their son la . disown us la ; why we must be so miserable in this world .

dunch talk about this le . ((: todayy woke up at 11 plus ; pretty late huhhs . =xx gort changed at twelve plus ; den prepare myself go orchard meet kenn hia di . we all walk around far east for him to look for his shirt . we slacked at plaza singapura laterr ; den played some rock fever . gide0n called kenn ; den we wait for him to come . we walked around like veri pua siian like that ; gideon sayy town not nice to go might as well go neighbourhood places like hougang ; kovan . please la who will go there ; tourists ? miie and kenn bo bian ; veri siian so follow gideon go kovan find his friend . he was like veri hongg like that ; any girl also can hold her hand like that . hongsters never die marhs ; what to do . next saturday either ii go kenn's house or kenn go my house ton . went to SGH just now for blood test . think my low blood pressure is back ; fcuk . ai yarhs who cares la ; nobody will give a damn wanns . if ii die die l0rx ; life is short ; ii have nothing left anymore . my life is falling apart ; everybody is watching ; the finale - ii'm shattered into pieces .

2007-02-04T21:31:00.001+08:00

20 DAYYS OF WAITING ; I LOVE YOU . MY LIFE IS FALLING NTO PIECES ; PLEASE COME BACK .

2007-02-03T13:30:00.001+08:00

18 DAYS OF WAITING ; I'M STILL HOLDING ON FOR YOU TO COME BACK .

2007-02-03T13:30:00.000+08:00

ON OUR WAY TO HOUGANG TO FIND GIDEON . . . BUT BEFORE THAT . . .

A LITTLE SMOKING FOR CAINE AND KENN TO KILL TIME AWAY . . .

SLACKING AT HOUGANG . . . MY BROTHERS . GIDEON ; KENN ; CAINE .

KENN AND ME . BROTHERS FOR LIFE ! ((:

t0dayy was another dayy for me ; after work ; went to eunos mrt to meet kenn den went to his house slack slack . den kenn gort a call from gide0n ; seems that kenn dun look too good . learnt from him that he mayy tio a police case . siian ah ; why does this happen to my bro . den we went down to h0ugang ; and discuss about that matter . saw some peeps at hougang whom ii saw at bugis all the time . whatever it is ; ii pray for the best for my brothers . no pr0bati0n ; b0ys' h0me 0r whatever . mum keep kpkb at miie ; say i influence caine . fcuk la ; arbo i move out la . knn ; my parents will never understand me ; still treat me like what sia . haiish ; they will never know how i am feeling . bo chup liao after chinese new year go highlight my hair liao dun care them . want get me out of the house just go ahead ; ii not scarred . anyway tomorrow going down bugis ; bo chup ah mus havoc liao lerhs ; heard from bryaan maybe next friday getting O's results . get liao results go celebrate with kenn they all bo chup liao la haha . ((:

2007-02-02T13:32:00.000+08:00

你揉着哭红的眼睛
它让你眼神更忧郁
心疼你却无法安慰你
你说这世界冷冰冰
你怀疑什么是真情
想放弃想远远的逃离

伤放一旁别再多想
将过去遗忘

爱在爱你爱在爱你
从我们相遇那天起
不要哭泣不要哭泣
你应该被珍惜
爱在爱你我只想爱你
就算你会不答应
我会继续静静等待
留在你身旁陪你守候你

IF YOU COME BACK ; I'M GONNA HOLD YOU TIGHTER ;

I WON'T WANNA LET YOU GO ; THESE DAYS OF WAITING .

MADE ME REALISED ; THAT I AM REALLY NOTHING WITHOUT YOU .

I LOVE YOU .

17 DAYS OF WAITING .

2007-02-02T13:25:00.000+08:00

THIS SUNDAY GOING SGH ; SIIANS . THINK MY LOW BLOOD PRESSURE IS COMING AGAIN . LIFE IS REALLY TOO SHORT . ((:

2007-01-31T15:17:00.000+08:00

IF ONLY YOU CAN SEE IT INSIDE MY HEART ;

YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH I BLEED INSIDE .

EVER SINCE THE DAY YOU ARE GONE ;

THE FLASHBACKS AND MEMORIES KEEP HAUNTING MY DREAMS .

I COULDN'T BREATHE EASY ;

I WISHED YOU ARE BACK AT MY SIDE .

WHY DO PEOPLE ONLY TREASURE WHAT THEY HAVE AFTER THEY LOSE IT ?

I THOUGHT OF THE THINGS WE COULD DO TOGETHER ;

HOLDING YOUR HAND ; SEE THE SUNRISE AND SUNSHINE TOGETHER .

WILL IT HAPPEN ?

I DO NOT KNOW THE ANSWER ;

BUT I'M STILL HOLDING ON ;

BELIEVING YOU WILL COME BACK .

I WISH I COULD RETURN TO THE PAST ;

I WILL TAKE BACK MY SHOUTINGS ;

AND NOT WILLING TO LET YOU CRY AGAIN .

PLEASE LOOK BACK ;

YOU WILL KNOW HOW MUCH I NEEDED YOU ;

HOW BRUISED AND BATTERED I AM .

THE PROMISES WE HELD TOGETHER ;

I'M STILL HOLDING THEM CLOSE TO MY HEART .

THE BLOOD KEEPS TICKERING IN MY HEART ;

EACH DAY I'M YEARNING FOR YOU TO COME BACK .

HAZEL TAN LING YING ; I LOVE YOU .

16 DAYS ; WAITING IS ALL I CAN DO NOW .

2007-01-31T14:58:00.001+08:00

O LEVEL RESULTS COMING OUT ON THE 5TH OF FEBUARY ? SIIANS .

2007-01-30T15:04:00.000+08:00

OKAY GUYYS ; JUST HERE TO SAY THAT IF I DID NOT UPDATE ANYTHING IN MY BLOG ; IT MEANS I REALLY HAD NOTHING TO SAY SO I WON'T POST. stop bugging me to update my bl0g ; ii kn0w y0u all wann see but if nothing to sayy how to see hahas . x=

went t0 w0rk as per n0rmal ; supervisor asked me to work during the second dayy of lunar new year ! haiy0s ; ii want enj0y canns . hahas. =x at around seven talked to leon and hazel on conference ; they all like quarreling derhs . tried t0 cheer hazel up nerhx ; but she like upset and crying derhs . haiis ; it really hurts my heart nerhx . 10 m0re minns bef0re ii have t0 switch off the com ; but before that ; ii have to write something heree for my baby girl . (:

LOOK HERE MY BABY GIRL ! ( X

SORRY BABY GIRL !

JUST NOW PUT DOWN THE PHONE QUITE HASTILY .

WISHED I COULD HAVE TALKED TO YOU LONGER ;

BE THERE FOR YOU LONGER AND TRIED TO CHEER YOU

UP WITH ALL THE INTERESTING HAPPENINGS .

HAIYOS DON'T BE SAD ABOUT JUST NOW ;

REMEMBER THAT I AM STILL HERE FOR YOU .

IF I WERE HIM ; I WOULD HAVE TAKEN BACK ALL MY
WORDS.

I WOULD HAVE TREAT YOU WITH MORE CARE ; LOVE AND WOULD NOT HAVE SHOUTED AT YOU .

YOU KNOW I AM STILL WAITING ; YOU WILL BE LIVING IN MY HEART .

COME BACK TO ME ; YOU KNOW I STILL LOVE YOU .

I DO CHERISH YOU ; EVEN MORE .

STAY WITH ME ; I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU AGAIN .

REMEMBER OUR UNFUFILLED PROMISES . (:

# 14 DAYS OF WAITING ; I WANT YOU BACK .

2007-01-29T10:30:00.000+08:00

SORRY GUYS NEVER REALLY GO UPDATE MY BLOG ; was kinda busy never online barhs . s0 many things happened and ii am quite lazy to explain all of it barhs . ytd went up SNOWBOI ; GIDEON ; KENN br0 they all . went fusion play pool ; dun talk ab0ut po0l ; you play with SNOWBOI unless you want to throw your money away . he only play punch wtf sia ; win him one match lose him two matches xia . met CHLOE and theyy all at around four plus ; siiansation there . met JOSEPH AND XIAOBOI they all . at last XIAOJESS knew who am ii . =.=" t0dayy went t0 w0rk ; n0thing unusual happened . heard that LEON gort in to hospital ; siians . HAZEL was pretty worried and sadd ; haiis ii wished ii could cheer her up or somethingg . hmmms nothing much to write much ; guess ii should sign out from here . (:

THANKS KENN ; GIDEON AND THE OTHER HIA DI'S .

YOU SHOWED ME WHAT BROTHERHOOD IS .

I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU GUYS ;

BROTHERHOOD AH HUAT AH HUAT !

STOP BEING UPSET MY SWEETIE ;

I AM HERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS .

IF YOU LOOK BACK ;

I AM ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU TO LEAN ON .

YOU ARE THE CUTTEST AND SWEETEST . (:

13 DAYS AND I AM WAITING FOR YOU ; I ONLY HAVE YOU IN MY HEART .

2007-01-25T16:47:00.000+08:00

GOSH DO I LOOK SCARY ? X=

here's another post siians my parents keep nagging at miie for staying at home zu0 wu zu0 b0 haiy0y0 . my N70 needs to bring for repair siian ji pua this means no MP3 ; cannot take 2.0 megapixel pictures . SIIAN AR ! called hazel sweetie a few times ; g0sh herr motherr nagged at herr to0s must be studies still g0rt wad else l0l . reminds miie 0f last yr g0sh ii dun want t0 retain ahhs hao scarred lehhs . think hazel's studies so many subjects changed syllabus lia0s haiiy0 . only some questions can help herr barhs haha . I HAVE QUIT SMOKING ! haha s0 pr0ud t0 ann0unce that haha . think ii have not much money barhs and probably dun want to get caught by my parents . x= t0dayy at w0rk quite crazy barhs miie and Dominic keep talking about 'Cha Wu' lol ; he stamp the toast box thing at my muscle den go to the breadtalk bakers show off we all dua pai kias . hahas s0 lamee . =.=" this saturdayy going to bugis barhs with Gideon they all lol Caine ask Hazel whether want come Kovan on Fridayy . haha sh0 stupid xia at the time when ii disturbed him smelly pigg . x= not really much to sayy barhs ; maybe on my next post ? (:

LOL LUCKILY CAINE DO NOT KNOW I'M TAKING THIS ; PIG !

ANOTHER PIC OF MYSELF . . .

AND THE BACK VIEW OF MYSELF ; GOSH THAT IS NOT A NICE SHOT AT ALL . =/

# 10 DAYS AND I'M STILL WAITING ; I STILL LOVE YOU . I BELONG TO YOU . <>

2007-01-25T07:45:00.000+08:00

neverr post since ytd ; quite tired after keyboard lesson and work siian ji pua xia . haiis she knew that ii smoked ; and said thatt she won't come back to miie because of that . stupid excuse xia ; she dun even loved miie at all haiis why talk s0 much xia . if she loved miie she won't care and will just come back to miie . she should know that ii would quit smoking and stuffs like that ; she will neverr know how much ii loved herr . SIIANS ytd go watch ghost tunnel ; the storyline is quite riduculous barhs . but the ending quite nice and sadd as the girl's friend die xia . saw Jovelle mummy and Jasper daddy siian ji pua . they are so sweet ; haiis I'm gonna break down any minute soon . luckily the time passed quickly ; I hope she will come backk .yesterday was my supposed me and hazel's third month ; haiis ii'm getting more upset then . mem0ries 0f the past all flows back to miie ; ii'm trying to put all of that awayy but it is too many things . too many things of the past ; she will never know how hurt ii am . looks like it is gonna be a LONELY VALENTINE'S DAY for miie and my hia di's ; siians . what to do xia that dayy ; maybe go home sleep to numb myself . gonna quit smoking because ii gonna bo money liao ; and maybe gonna build my stamina and body up . feel so fcuked up right now ii'm gonna call my hia di to chat ; SIIANS .

YOU NEVER WANT TO BE BACK WITH ME ; STOP LYING TO ME AND YOURSELF .

YOU JOLLY WELL KNOW IT YOURSELF ; WILL YOU EVER KNOW HOW HURT I AM ?

I ONLY WANT YOU TO LOVE ME BACK THAT IS SO SIMPLE .

YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU ; YOU WALKED AWAY AND LEFT ME PICKING UP THE PIECES ALONE .

I WAS CUT BY THEM ; BLEEDING SO PROFUSELY YOU DON'T EVEN CARE .

I CONTINUED PICKING THEM UP ; MY HEART ONLY HAS ONE WISH ONLY YOU CAN FUFILL IT .

I ONLY WANT YOU BACK .

2007-01-23T08:04:00.000+08:00

POST FOR TODAYY HAHAS . w0ke up early in the morning for work ; den g0 sio hun kee hahas . t0day w0rk cust0mers sh0w attitude xia ; nbccb ; buay song dun c0me la . den g0 sm0ke after w0rk alm0st ti0 caught by HSA ; KNN . wheck him in the stomach ii quickly escape lia0s . siian h0pe t0m0rr0w HSA dun c0mb centrepoint ; arb0 ii die lia0 . BLOODY HSA AR PUA JI BAI ; HONG GANN AR KNN .

she became my sweetie ; but I still can't get over herr .

why d0 ii keep having h0pes 0f herr being with miie agaiin ?

I wished I was deadd ;

I wouldn't think of anything like this .

NO NEED WORRY FOR MONEY ; PARENTS ; OR ANYTHING .

that's all f0r t0dayy n0thing much happened t0dayy . maybe wann quit my j0bb ; my payy per h0ur same as the t0ys r us ; Steve ask miie g0 there w0rk with him ii see h0w . maybe dun want cause a bit she bu de my current j0bb ; all my pe0ple treat miie s0 go0d and missed the breadtalk stuff to0s . can eat the bread and drinks l0l . and slacking and disturb Domanic hahas . x=

YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MY HEART ACHES ; WE BUILT IT UP TO WATCH IT FALL ?

2007-01-22T07:25:00.000+08:00

SORRY LATE UPDATE FOR THE BLOG ; yesterday went to rain's concert hahas. ( : his dance moves were fantastic ; his b0dy damn nice xia l0l . x=

I WAS THINKING OF CLOSING THIS BLOG ; IT BRINGS ME BACK TOO MANY HURTING AND HEARTBREAK FEELINGS . n0b0dy kn0ws h0w much hurting she is causing ; my w0rld is turned into greyscale .

THANKS MY HIA DI'S AND THOSE WHO WERE THERE FOR ME DURING THESE TIMES .

A BIG THANKYOU TO KENNETH HIA DI ! BROTHERHOOD 24/7 . ( :

2007-01-20T23:33:00.001+08:00

siiansati0n ; t0dayy w0ke up at three pluss . haiis ; still can't get 0ver herr ; having the h0pe she will c0me backk t0 me . very jia lat arghs ; feel s0 fcuked up . w0rk was n0rmal ; went t0 withdraw the 0ne hundred and fifty d0llars fr0m the bank . den ii met kenneth hia di at cineleisure at 0ne plus ; den caine br0 came al0ng at tw0 thirty . slacked and slacked ; until kenneth's gan-mummy BIBI and herr friend came t0 meet us . we went d0wn t0 bugis at three plus ; met s0me 0f kenneth's friends at the arcade . s0 many pe0ple knew ii was upset ; all cheered miie up . THANKS HIA DI'S ! ( : met joseph ; wakakas we all the wh0le bugis area ; ji sia0ing 0ne an0therr and walking the wh0le place as if it is 0urs . saw many friendster peeps ; XIAOJESS ; XIAOBOI ; CHLOE and 0therrs . XIAOJESS dunch seems t0 see miie ; alth0ugh ii am in fr0nt 0f herr . perhaps ii lo0k different in herr eyes because ii wear spects ? x= played rock fever ; die like siiao xia . =.= Joseph keep taking and wearing my cap ; sayy lo0ks very co0l and cute 0n him . he als0 want t0 b0rr0w my cap f0r 0ne dayy ; ROFL . saw XIAOJESS AND XIAOBOI togetherr ; s0 sweet ! haiis ; 0nce agaiin it c0mes backk and haunt miie . perhaps miie and ah kenn have the same life barhs ; all s0 thi0ngxim ; in the end wadd happened . lo0ks like we are all l0ners and victims barhs ; pe0ple keep saying miie 0f being t0o go0d and giving the best 0f everything f0r l0ve ; ii was the last kind 0f guyy 0n earth . my m0ther seems t0 see miie depressed agaiin ; but ii hide it fr0m herr agaiin . i feel s0 miserable ; despite XIAOFANG and the 0thers cheering miie up . THANKS GUYS ! ii try my best . ) : t0m0rr0w g0ing Rain's c0ncert with ZHIWEN ; his steadd b0 acc0mpany him . h0pe ii cann enj0y myself denn . x=

WILL ANYONE CARE IF I LEFT THIS WORLD ?

2007-01-18T13:38:00.000+08:00

HMMMS ; n0thing much happened t0dayy . th0ughts 0f herr flo0ding my head right n0w ; quite distracted t0dayy . SHE IS THE ONE I REALLY LOVE ! heard fr0m herr friend that she is staying at herr place ; at least that is a relief . next week is g0nna be 0ur third m0nth ; my mindd is in a mess n0w . I AM WILLING TO DO ANYTHING FOR HER TO COME BACK ; SHE IS THE ONE I REALLY NEED TILL THE END .

THEY SAID THAT I AM THE LAST GUYY OF THAT KIND ON EARTH . I DON'T CARE ; NO MATTER WHAT NOTHING STOPS MY HEART FROM LOVING YOU .

为你活了下来决定疯狂的爱没有遗憾

不会停的阻碍全是悲哀无奈拼了命也要去爱你

我们许下同一个心愿就是能够永远不被分离

受够嘲笑的声音我把生命给了你

先放弃的未来宁愿一生等待痛快的爱

这段故事完美结局

带着你的勇气不再离去

多苦多痛的爱这一次拼了命也要在一起

2007-01-17T14:05:00.000+08:00

it's been 0ne dayy ; and ii still haven't heard fr0m hazel yet . haiish ; ii am really w0rried ab0ut herr . ii l0gged in t0 friendster ; and kn0w that she viewed my pr0file ! she is 0kayy ! what a relieve ; ii keep having th0ughts that ii saw the newspaper that .... arghs ; dun wann sayy . TOUCH WOOD ! t0dayy went t0 w0rk as per n0rmal ; think ii wasn't c0ncentrating t0dayy ; ii didn't kn0w the flo0r was slippery ; ii slipped and alm0st fell ; and br0ke the cupps and plates . x= many pe0ple knew ab0ut what happened ; and c0ns0led miie . later 0n the b0tt0m ii g0nna write my decati0ns t0 all 0f y0uu ; thanks pe0ple ! =D ten 0' cl0ck ii must switch 0ff c0m lerhs ; siians ; T.T . n0thing much ab0ut t0dayy ; my m0ther ask agaiin ii lo0k very depressed since ytd . ii hide it fr0m herr agaiin ; dun wanna talk ab0ut it .

TO THESE PEOPLE WHO ARE THERE FOR ME ( SINCE SUNDAY . )

BRENDA MEI
YANYING MUMMY
JASPER DADDY
XIAOBOY DI
BIBI NUER
XIAOFANG
KITTY MEI
CAINE BRO

THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME ; I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU GUYYS ! X)

Additi0nal dedicati0ns ( :

Brenda meii . ( : thanks f0r being there f0r miie since sundayy ; ii kn0w we haven't been sleeping well since sundayy ; w0rrying f0r hazel . dunch w0rrie ; ii am g0nna h0ld 0n f0r Hazel . ii believe we are g0nna hear fr0m her ; she will be backk . mine and herr fairytale are g0nna c0ntinue ; ii believe the ending 0f the m0vie ii saw in my dream will c0me truee . x)

LAOPO I HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON ; COME BACKK TO MY SIDE . I MISSED THOSE SINGING WE HAD TOGETHER ; THOSE SWEET AND PRECIOUS MEMORIES ; NOBODY CAN EVER TAKE THEM AWAY .

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

LAOPO I HOPE YOU ARE SEEING THIS ; I'M GONNA KEEP HOLDING ON . OUR FAIRYTALE WILL CONTINUE ; I WILL STAY STRONG FOR YOUU . NOTHING CAN CHANGE DESTINY ; WHATEVER HAPPENS WE WILL FACE IT TOGETHER . I AM HERE FOR YOU WHENEVER YOU NEED ME ; HOLD MY HAND ; I PROMISE I'M GONNA WALK WITH YOU TILL THE END . <>

I MEAN IT ; I LOVE YOU . ( :

2007-01-16T13:48:00.000+08:00

this maybe the darkest m0ment in my life ; haiish . ) : a little update ab0ut yesterday night ; the m0st sh0cking part ; hazel cann0t be c0ntacted . i dun kn0w whether she ran away fr0m h0me 0r s0methingg ; ii'm damn w0rried ; until n0w . didn't really sleep a wink fr0m last night until n0w ; can't believe ii still can be writing this p0st rights ? x=

[[ t0dayy -15/01/2006 . ) : ]

at seven fifteen ; ii went t0 w0rk as usual ; with a w0rried and nerv0us heart . haiish ; ii finished w0rk ; called brenda meii but she at scho0l ; her parents having the hp . ii decided t0 lo0k her up at her h0use ; but n0b0dy was there . ii went backk t0 wo0dlands interchange ; g0ing t0 yi0 chu kang mrt ; maybe brenda cann meet miie there and h0pefully hazel is with herr . end up brenda cann0t g0 0ut and meet miie ; ii decided t0 g0 h0me . when ii call brenda ( finally . x= ) ; she tell miie hazel is still n0t with herr . my heart sank ; g0nna break d0wn so0n ; after the m0ment ii receive that sms . she t0ld miie she want t0 break with miie temp0rary ; f0r a few weeks . she said she need silence t0 retreive her line ; and when she is back to n0rmal she will be with miie again . i'm g0nna trust herr ; 0ur pr0mises and tw0 m0nth plus relati0nship ; she ain't g0nna shatter destr0y all 0f that in fr0nt 0f miie . she w0n't make my w0rld greyscale agaiin when she was the 0ne wh0 made mine c0l0urful . cause that is what inner sense t0ld miie ; but right n0w ii just pray that she is fine . when my m0ther ask miie h0w was t0dayy ; ii lied t0 herr . she seems t0 kn0w ii'm mo0dy ; and ask miie ab0ut it . ii t0ld herr n0thing happened ; hiding that lie inside my heart .

I CAN'T BREATHE EASY
CAN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT ; TILL YOU ARE MY SIDE .
OUT OF MY MIND ; NOTHING MAKES SENSE ANYMORE .
I WANT YOU BACKK ; THAT'S ALL I'M BREATHING FOR .
YOU MADE ME REALISE I AM NOTHING WITHOUT YOU;
ALL THE PROMISES II SAID ; I'M MEAN IT .
CURSE ME INSIDE FOR THE THINGS I DONE TO MAKE YOU CRY ;
CURSE ME A THOUSAND TIMES ; I'M WILLING TO DO ANYTHING .
ANYTHING SO LONG YOU ARE BY MY SIDE ;
I PROMISE .

# TELL ME YOU ARE SAFE ; WHERE ARE YOU ? I'M MISSING AND WORRYING FOR YOU BADLY ; NOTHING MATTERS ANYMORE SO LONG YOU ARE SAFE AND SOUND .

I LOVE YOU ; I'M GONNA CHERISH YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE .

I REALLY MEAN IT .

2007-01-14T21:11:00.000+08:00

I PROMISE . <3

here's an0therr p0st ; ab0ut t0dayy's happenings . ( : siians ; my parents and br0thers came backk t0 singap0re . want them stayy away l0ngerr ; ii like veri hei xin like thats . x= t0dayy went t0 w0rk ; 0mg . the place is s0 fully -packed ; ii was s0 busy ii litterally fell asleep the m0ment ii b0arded the buss . w0rk f0r 5 h0urss full f0rce at the t0ast p0siti0n ; when there is n0 cust0mers ii c0uld 0nly take a 'sh0rt' break in the kitchen . ate a few breadtalk de fo0d ; nice sehx . l0l ; fatty piggie ? my metab0lism rate is high ; g0sh . that is the reas0n whye ii dun put 0n any weight when ii eat to0 much ; 0ne example will be last yr . ii keep g0ing t0 starr cruise every week ; keep eating s0 much but still like remain 0n the same weight . =DD den when ii was eating ; 0ne 0f the bakers at breadtalk played the s0ng ' My Humps " . l0l ; den 0ne baker dun kn0w ; pr0n0unce as 'Mai Hum ' . ROFL . den we all sing 'Mai Hum' ; s0 funny sehx . saw the taggb0ard ; le0n wr0te 0n my bl0g ? h0w did he kn0w mye bl0g ? wh0 knew . t0dayy tried t0 msg and call la0p0 ; den she msg miie herr m0ther is at h0me . ii msg herr few times but she b0 replyy . herr m0therr is at h0me - 0ur lives are similar s0meh0w . h0pe ii cann see her t0m0rr0w 0r any dayys 0f the week . alth0ugh ii am w0rried f0r herr s0meh0w ; but ii believe n0thing will happen t0 herr . guess ii missed herr to0 much ; can't wait f0r t0m0rr0w . ii c0uld lo0k f0r herr den . ( :

# OUR LIVES ARE THE SAME SOMEHOW ; THIS IS FATE - WE ARE TOGETHER ; YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BOO . <3

2007-01-14T15:20:00.000+08:00

TAKEN BEFORE WORK TODAYY .

MY LAOPO ACTING CUTE . NAHHS ; NOT ACTING CUTE . BEING MORE CUTE ? SHE'S THE CUTTEST . ;P

ME AND LAOPO ; SWEETIES PIGGIES COUPLE ; TILL THE END. <3

SIANSATION ? SCRIBBLING OVER THE PAPER .

wees ; t0dayy seems t0 pass by very quickly . =x my parents and br0 went t0 cruise ; hav0c time ? ;p w0ke up at 7 t0dayy ; g0rt ready and set 0ff f0r w0rkk . t0dayy very busy nerhx ; dun even have a time f0r a breather . s0 many typical cust0mers ; even the angm0s . LOL . after w0rk ii and la0p0 chatted 0n sms . she t0ld miie thatt her m0ther and sister n0t in singap0re ; kakas . after w0rk ii decided t0 g0 t0 herr placee ; give herr a surprise . arghs ; when ii came backk fr0m cineleisure my parents never even call backk t0 check . sh0uld have peii my la0p0 l0ngerr ; neverr mindd . cann see her next week anywayy . =DD d0ne s0 many things at her place ; saw vassantham central . ROFL . breakfast =x . listen t0 s0ngs 0n la0p0's hp ; sang liang shan b0 and zhu ying tai and w0 ke yi t0getherr . ahhhs . x) are the pictures en0ugh t0 sh0w what we d0ne in herr place ? hahas ; 0nly miie and herr kn0w very well . [[= after g0ing t0 la0p0's place ; went t0 cineleisure t0 meet XIAOBOY di . met his gan mummy als0 ; all s0 funny sehx . d0wn there theyy all check 0ut CHIOBUS and YANDAOS ; l0l . den went t0 BK t0 eat and played po0l . actually wanna stayy at la0p0's place f0r 0ne night ; but herr m0ther and sis c0ming backk ; due t0 the flo0d in malaysia . my parents and br0s will be backk t0m0rr0w at ard 11am at singap0re . SIIANSATION ; ii better prepare th0se ears f0r their nagging . =/ g0nna catch s0me sleep n0w ; go0d nights . [[=

OUR SONG ; AISHITERU . < 3

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你

为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就能够让我们相偎相依

我爱你你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱永远不放开
i love you
我爱你你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着未来

为什么你还是不言不语不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

2007-01-13T14:49:00.000+08:00

I AM MISSING YOU ; SCREAMING YOUR NAME ; THAT YOU ALWAYS BE MY BOO . <>

s0rrie f0r the latee update guyys . been busy lately with my w0rk . x= s0 many dayys passed ; and many things happened . last saturdayy ii try 0ut the j0bb at suntecc ; first dayy already very cham . haiis ; the managerr sc0lded miie and fired miie s0mem0re ; make miie earn that thirty six d0llars als0 n0t satisfied . wanna thr0w the m0ney at his face ! xx= s0mem0re my la0p0 that night f0ur slept ; that was the w0rst dayy ii everr hadd . h0w ii wish ii neverr w0rk there at all ; if n0t my la0p0 w0uldn't be w0rrying f0r miie ; being upset . feel sh0 heartpaiin f0r herr ; SORRY LAOPO ! ii pr0mise it w0n't happen agaiin .

heard that herr mum g0ing t0 cancel her line ! haiish ; all ii can d0 is msg herr and call herr ; wait f0r herr reply . keep fearing h0w am ii g0ing t0 c0mmunicate with herr ; and w0rrying f0rr herr . haiish st0p thinking ab0ut it ! hmmms ; guess ii am to0 w0rried and missing herr to0 much . next week can see herr lia0s ; still missing herr s0 badly . relax ZHIYANG ; haiy0y0s . these dayys ii spent ii kept thinking 0f herr all the time ; h0w ii wish she was at my side and things like thatt . my parents keep asking miie t0 scram fr0m the h0use ; haiish . family c0mplicati0ns ; why d0 parents dun understand their children . if ii c0uld stayy at herr h0use ; den can see herr everydayy . ;p

SIIANSATION ! t0dayy wh0le dayy raining heavily arghs . stupid raiin . x= my parents and br0thers went f0r cruise ; sundayy den c0me backk . ii need t0 gain backk their trust ; they are starting t0 trust miie .x) hadd funn with tr0lley rides with d0minic when ii went t0 thr0w the rubbish . LOL . 0h yeahs ! f0rg0t t0 tell y0uu ii had a pretty weird dream last night ; that ii went in a cinema ; ii saw a m0vie . ii can't believe whatt ii simply see . ii saw myself and hazel in the m0vie ! the starting sh0ws the part when we are chatting 0nline 0n msn at first ; h0w hazel cheer miie up and make miie change my negative thinking ; when we first met ; happy and sadd mem0ries all in the m0vie . den ii saw the ending ; miie and hazel getting married ? h0pe this is the ending in the real life . s0mem0re after the sh0w still have epis0de tw0 ; errrs . =/ actually t0dayy g0ing cineleisure meeting mye dii and friends; but raining very heavily . s0 p0stp0ned t0 t0m0rr0w ; at the same time after w0rk ; ii meeting yanying mummy and michelle mei and peeps at bugis. rushing arghs ! s0rrie mummy ! neverr give y0uu tuiti0n . x= wish ii c0uld meet la0p0 ! 0ne dayy b0 hear herr v0ice ; ii'm starting t0 miss herr really terribly badly . 0nce agaiin ZHIYANG ; c0ntr0l y0urself . [[=

82 DAYYS ; WE ARE TOGETHERR . as each dayy passes by ; y0u made miie realise h0w str0ng ii can be ; 0nly f0r y0uu . everytime when y0u are upset ; hurt ; it always make my heartt aches ; wishing ii c0uld take the paiin and tearrs f0r y0uu . s0 l0ng it makes y0u smile and happy ; it d0esn't matter . whenever y0u are n0t my sidee ; ii missed y0u s0 badly . n0w ii kn0w h0w it feels ; when ii am at cruise . SORRY LAOPO ; ii will make it up t0 y0uu . [[= ever since ii gave y0u mye first kiss ; my heart rec0gnises y0uu ; that y0u will always be my bo0 . the 0ne pers0n wh0 cann ever make my w0rld s0 bright ; s0 c0l0urful ; beautiful things ii NEVER EVER expect t0 see . ii stick t0 my pr0mise ; as what we pr0mised t0getherr . until 0ur piggies are b0rn ; kakas . will there be a 'div0rce ' in the future ? ii pr0mise y0u ; hist0ry w0n't repeat agaiin . 11 MORE dayys t0 0ur third m0nth anniversary ; hmmms whatt sh0uld ii give t0 herr nerhx ? nahhs ; cann0t tell y0uu . 0n 0ur third m0nth ii will tell y0uu peeps .

it's 10.45pm ; t0m0rr0w ii have w0rk . g0tta sleep n0w ; byee peeps ! =DD

THIS DREAM WILL COME TRUE ; I BELIEVE IT ; BECAUSE YOU LIVE . I'M GONNA HOLD YOUR HANDD ; WE WILL MAKE IT TOGETHERR TILL OUR LAST BREATH . [[=

2006-12-18T07:46:00.000+08:00

hmmms ; heree f0r an early p0st agaiin. cause later w0rking 0n the afterno0n shift - 5pm t0 10pm. 0nly f0r t0day w0rhs ; but the rest w0rking fr0m 7.30am t0 12.30pm. yesterdayy hadd a r0w with my dadd ; all because 0f msn. f0rget it ; anywayy things are 0kay n0w.=]] just saw my la0p0 de early p0st ; wahhs ha0 t0uched w0rhs. w0nder h0w will 0ur sec0nd m0nth anniversary will be like. wahahas ; g0ing t0 w0rk until twelve f0r that dayy ; den ii g0 gett changed and meet la0p0 and her friends at far east plaza. hmms ; ii w0nder wadd my la0p0 will give miie w0rhs. l0ve my la0p0 l0ads. =D

TO MY ONE AND ONLY BAOBEI LAOPO.=D

ever since the first dayy we are t0gether ; ii hadd a str0ng feeling that we will g0 very farr in this relati0nshipp. b0th 0f hearts are fragile ; sh0 we must handle each 0ther with l0ve and caree. hees. ii remembered my first kiss t0 y0u ; wahahas ; at that time shyness and b0th happiness filled up my heart ; s0mething ii never felt bef0re with my 0ther ex's. we are pessimists in the past ; n0w are sticked t0gether like tw0 peas in a p0d. ;P everytime when ii give y0u a lift backk t0 y0ur h0me ; ii will want t0 h0ld y0u tightly in my arms ; can't bear f0r y0u t0 leave . 0ur past is dark and glo0my ; n0w 0ur present and future are filled with c0l0urs ; anticipati0n ; and h0pe which will h0ld us t0gether. hmmms ; wadd am ii g0ing t0 give t0 my ba0bei la0p0 nerhx. cann0t sayy derhs ; wait n0t fun les. ;P alrights my ba0bei la0p0 ; la0g0ng pr0mise y0u. we will watch the sunrise and sunset t0gether ; 0n 0ur first yearr. *pinky pr0mise ; la0p0 ii will be sticked t0 0nly y0u. n0thing matters anym0ree ; baby y0u are mine n0w. sticked t0 0ur hearts till 0ur last breath.=]]

hmmms ; ii will n0t be p0sting until 23rd 0f december. wahahas ; keep y0u all updated with the happenings and stuffs. must ha0 ha0 take caree alrights la0p0 ; we g0 0ffline at the samee timee ; hees. =]] la0p0 ; la0g0ng w0n't be p0sting to0s. ;P

HAZEL TAN LING YING ; I'M LOVING YOU TILL THE END. NO MATTER HOW HARD THE PATH AHEAD IS ; I WILL NEVER STOPP.<33

2006-12-18T07:20:00.000+08:00

HERE FOR A EARLY POST.=]] hmmms ; ytd my la0p0 upset sehx. pe0ple keep jisia0ing herrs ; arghs! if i c0uld ii wanna just keep them away fr0m my la0p0 ; wanna pr0tect herr fr0m harmm. t0day went t0 viv0city t0 w0rk. the place is very stupid xiaa. never explain t0 miie think ii very expert lia0 huhhs ; ask miie d0 this d0 that. den when ii make mistakes s0me 0f the crew there sh0w miie attitude. ii first dayy c0me their place w0rk ; this is wadd ii gett. stupid attitude xiaa. saw my la0p0's p0st at herr bl0gg. hmmms ; she said she keep hearing my sh0uting. arghs ; that is during my first quarrel. think ii d0 n0t kn0w that she dislike sh0uting all al0ng ; s0 ii just 'sh0uted' at herr ; and she g0rt upset. haiish ; sh0uld n0t have sh0uted at her. ii just want her t0 be str0ng . t0dayy she like quite sick w0rhs ; arghs ; h0pe she is 0kay.=]] she als0 dun want miie t0 leave either ; like h0w much ii dun want her t0 leave miie to0s. everydayy makes miie cherish herr even m0ree ; and anything that happens 0ccur t0 miie and her as challenges and building bl0cks that make 0ur relati0nship even str0nger and cl0ser that bef0re. each dayy passes with the windd ; time testing us h0w str0ng 0ur pr0mises will h0ld. 6 MORE dayys t0 g0 ; ii'm sticking t0 ONLY y0u. =]]

LAOPO IF YOU ARE READING THIS ;

ii just wanna sayy AISHITERU ; AND I WILL.=]]

ii wanna h0ld y0ur hand and t0gether we will walk d0wn this r0ad till the end.

I WANNA DOTE YOU ; LOVE YOU ;

And the pr0mise that ii made ii will h0ld 0n and be faithful t0 0nly y0u.

MY PROMISE ; NEVER LEAVING YOU - PLEDGED ON 22/10/2006.

DARLING I LOVE YOU. <33

2006-12-16T18:11:00.000+08:00

OKAYS ; here is my p0st f0r t0dayy.=]] hmmms ; t0day b0 g0 w0rk w0rhs. cause supervis0r sayy all the m0rning shift taken lia0s ; den ii can 0ff . l0l ; lo0ks like 0ff really very siian wanns derhs. my mum keep nagging at miie ; sayy ii stayy at h0me like d0ing n0thing like that. sayy ii rubbish ; wann miie w0rk l0ng l0ng ; dun wann miie stayy at h0me. where g0rt m0thers like this wanns ; strange.=xx den my br0ther g0rt s0me seri0us tr0uble sehx. my m0ther went d0wnstairs resting 0n the massage chair listening t0 her hp mp3 ; den my br0 th0ught n0b0dy at h0me. and s0mem0re his hp n0t given marhs ; den he sc0ld vulgar ti0 my m0ther hear. den his hp ti0 c0nfiscated ; b0 give himm. den he came h0me agaiin ; and went 0ff agaiin. 0ur m0ther said that he cursed her this and that ; haiy0s.everytime my family always like that derhs ; first sm0king n0t en0ugh ; n0w this issue. siians.=xx wahahas. think ii wearing the new shirt ii b0ught fr0m Penang 0n miie and la0p0 the sec0nd anniversary. saw la0p0's the dedicati0n 0n her bl0gg ; ha0 t0uched w0rhs. bring miie all the go0d mem0ries we ever have fr0m the time bef0re we stead till we are t0gether. ii l0ve my la0p0 m0re and m0re everyday w0rhs ; lo0ks like n0thing can ever break the l0ve ii have f0r herr. everytime g0 0ut with her my heartt always like warm warm de feeling ; s0mething ii never feel bef0re with my 0ther ex. 7 m0rre dayys t0 g0! AISHITERU LAOPO ; muacks.=D

2006-12-15T16:35:00.000+08:00

HEYYS. =D ahahas ; just back fr0m w0rk at great w0rld. t0day w0ke up at six thirty t0 get a bus and alight t0 walk all the wayy t0 great w0rld city. henggs 0nly tw0 days ; if n0t ii will die w0rhs.=xx lo0ks like my thinking is wr0ng. why nerhx. hmmms ; at first th0ught w0n't have s0 many cust0mers c0ming. but den the m0ment ii put my bagg and went t0 the kitchen ; the cr0wd is getting m0re and m0re lerhs. ha0 jing zhang sehx. den g0 t0ast s0 many pieces 0f bread ; six pieces t0asted until 'cha0 ta' lia0s! t0m0rr0w cann0t like that lerhs ; if n0t ii sure get blame wanns. g0rt a new supervis0r ; quite friendly nerhx. she is the supervs0r wh0 will guide miie and the 0ther part time crew all the wayy till we w0rk at centrep0int at the 17 0r 18 0f december. my manager t0ld us t0day is jut a warmup ; when g0 t0 centrep0int the cr0wd is sure tw0 times greater derhs. ahhhs! cann0t aff0rd any mistakes lia0s. the supervis0r als0 t0ught us h0w t0 prepare french t0ast in different wayys and flav0urs ; and als0 the pr0p0rti0n 0f ingredients f0r mee siam. hmmms ; h0pe my la0p0 is 0kay. she said that the wayy ii wr0te my letter like g0ing t0 break up w0rhs. hmmms ; maybe ii wr0te t0o much ab0ut my feelings inside the letter. next saturdayy g0ing t0 meet la0p0 lerhs. ha0 happy! if w0rk go0d maybe next week weekends can 0ff lerhs. hees.=D

PERHAPS THIS SONG CAN DESCRIBE MY LOVE AND FEEINGS II HAVE FOR HER. X)

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will

I LOVE YOU DARLING! STICKED TOGETHER TILL THE END. <33

2006-12-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

THE ANSWER. =D

HIHI. =D just starting 0ut the bl0g thinggy agaiin.=]] ahahas ; thanks a l0rt my ba0bei darling f0r helping miie 0ut f0r the bl0g.=] hmmms ; t0day b0 g0 w0rk w0rhs. hahas ; all my part time crew and myself b0 g0 f0r w0rk cause all dun wan w0rk at afterno0n. LOL! t0m0rr0w g0ing t0 great w0rk f0r training ; siians. why they want t0 change the place t0 great w0rld. dun kn0w my wayy there sehx.=/ so0n must g0 t0 sleep les ; waiit t0m0rr0w cann0t wake up.=xx t0day went 0ut with my ba0bei la0p0 ; hmmms ; my m0ther sc0lded miie 0n the hp s0 l0ud my la0p0 can hear sehx. ai yarhs dun care les ; s0 l0ng she is with miie can lia0s.=]] 9 m0re dayys t0 our sec0nd m0nth anniversary. ha0 happy w0rhs ; time flies and we are t0gether f0r alm0st tw0 m0nth lerhs. la0p0 ii l0ve y0u! MY ONLY MRS LIAN ; MUACKS.=D

2006-12-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

ZHIYANG ; HIS FAIRYTALE :DD !

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