Saturday, March 3, 2007
Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing
I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa
When you go
Would you even turn to say"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Well come on, come on
When you go
Would you have the guts to say"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
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12:56 AM
well ; just came back from work . pretty depressed ; hahs almost everyday i am feeling that wayy . ii dun know how to describe ; ii am feeling that ii am gonna be a different Zhi Yang soon . someone probably ain't gonna believe in love ; more pessimist ; slowly be engulfed in the darkness . ii am gonna break down anytime ; well ii am not gonna let anyone see me breaking down ; this pain will anyone understand ? haiish .
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Wednesday, February 28, 2007
hmmms . time really flies ; and it is 2 more weeks to my birthday . many things happened ; although ii know mostly are bad larhs ; but life still has to go on . right now she has left so far away it will be hard to turn back ; but ii know sooner or later ii got to move along ; or remain hurt . she is happy now ii guess ; ii couldn't give the happiness or be as good as him . ii remembered my birthday last yr is pretty sucky ; it is at cruise ; lol . ii have many wishes ; oh well ; can't say out ; if not they may not come true . right now ii am just like walking down in the rain alone at night ; there is lightning ; all the people in their houses are asleep ; nobody see me in the rain . if only there is someone ; someone who would just be in front of me ; taking the umbrella ; asking me and shelter me back to home . that is when my happiness arrived . but when will that day come ? when will ii see the rainbow after the storm ? it seems never ending ; it will never stop raining . and as each day passes by ; ii'm getting weaker and weaker ; and the rain is getting heavier and heavier; drowning me as ii fell into the puddle . ii am getting more and more pessimist ; perhaps ii may no longer be the Zhi Yang you used to know . WHERE IS MY HAPPINESS ?
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2:47 PM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
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ME AND XIAO KEAI . KEKES . THANKS FOR THE EDIT . ((:
ALWAYS . (:
hmmms it is been quite some time since ii last posted ; well been busy with work and stuffs ; dun wanna post so much about my personal life . it's been one month plus since ii am single ; people keep asking me how am ii gonna start to look for my happiness . or whether ii have found my happiness . yuups no doubt about it ; ii can only walk down the road that is called life ; and slowly ii will find my happiness . ii have been single for three year plus ; will it happen to me again ? guess ii am gonna keep moving forward ; not gonna let the force pull me to loneliness . things sometimes dun go my way ; ii know but what to do ; you don't expect her to come back to you ; a miracle you can only dream for it to happen . not really much to write ; except about the outings with CHIAKI XIAO KEAI and MELVYN . and also about my job from five to two at suntec last night ; ii am working OT because of the eight dollars per hour rate . kekes . (: next week ii will be full ; working five days of bouquet ; may not be online or posting as frequent . guess ii can only go out after next week ? maybe wanna go kenn's house to see his rabbit ; so cute . xx=
I NEED A MIRACLE . SERIOUSLY .
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9:36 PM
Thursday, February 22, 2007
你们要快乐 要紧紧牵手
你们不幸福 我会难过
成全最爱的人 不是为了看着他寂寞
你们要快乐 要天长地久 你们没有错
爱是自由
走出这扇门后 至少我还有辽阔
你们要快乐 要紧紧牵手
你们不幸福 我会难过
成全最爱的人 不是为了看着他寂寞
37 DAYS OF WAITING ; I LET YOU GO BECAUSE I LOVED YOU TOO MUCH .
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8:57 AM
ytd the whole night ii have been thinking hard . thinking about what happened during the periods of waiting for herr ; ii continued as each day passes ; having the hope of having herr to come back to my side ; refusing to remove the knife she stabbed deeply into my heart . it is seven ; my answer is up . I DECIDED TO GIVE UP . 37 DAYS OF WAITING ENDED JUST LIKE THIS ; the last present ii gave to herr was that eeyore toy . ii decided to let her go ; just to hope that she is happy without me ; ii feel that ii am a barrier to their relationship . perhaps what she said about having feelings about me was just part of my wishful thinking . like what others said ; ii was just too naive and foolish for herr . looks like ii'm backk to my own wayy of life ; darkness is what ii'm probably fated forr . ii made the decision ; it is painful but ii know ; she ain't gonna come backk anymore . if ii am gonna continue to wait it ain't gonna make things better ; it just gonna make my pain worse as the knife is still stuck to my heart .
ii realised that loving someone do not necessarily have to have him/her to be with youu ; so long the one you love is happy ; you will feel the same wayy toos . that is love . people who sayy they will love you forever and stuffs ; ii feel that they are too foolish and naive . they dun even know what the future will bring . if you sayy you love a person forever and when you found out he/she is playing with youu all along ; will you stick to that person forever ? the word 'forever' brings a huge importance ; it means till the day you die . endless .
Well ; ii am here agaiin . all alone agaiin . where do ii head for my happiness ? i'm walking down the road agaiin ; the unknown is there for me . ii have to be prepared for hurt ; lies and deceit . a strong force is pulling me from my happiness ; will ii have the strength to turn back to find my happiness ? Time will tell ; in the meantime ii only have my friends ; my dream ; my family to live for . Guess these few days ii may not post that often ; work and my outside life is making me feel occupied . that is the way to make me numb ? When will ii find my true happiness ? Time will tell . Till then . . . ((:
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8:53 AM
Sunday, February 18, 2007
SLIP SHOES FOR THE DAY ; I AM THE ODD ONE OUT . =xX
LIFE IS SO SHORT IT IS JUST A DISTANCE AWAY .
IT'S A BIRD . . . NO IT IS A PLANE . . . IT'S ZHIYANG AND KENN . ((:
BROTHERS 184 . ((:
A FEAST OF BROTHERHOOD . ((:
Well ; a picture tells a thousand words . lazy to sayy what we did that dayy ; may not be posting because ii am going to genting tonight . will be back on monday night . zzz . HAPPY CNY everyone ! ((:
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7:08 AM
Friday, February 16, 2007
I REMEMBERED THAT DAY ; I WAS BROKEN ; UNLOVED .
WISHING THE DAY COULD BE OVER UPON THE STARS ABOVE .
THEN I SAW A HAND REACHING OUT FOR ME ; IT WAS YOU .
WHO BROUGHT ME LOVE SO BEAUTIFUL I NEVER KNEW .
YOU NEVER DOUBTED MY WARPED OPINIONS ON THINGS LIKE SUICIDAL HATE ;
YOU MAKE ME COMPLIMENT MYSELF WHEN IT WAS TOO HARD TO TAKE .
YOU STAYED BY ME ; WE WALKED DOWN THE PATH HAND IN HAND .
GAVE ME WARMTH ; THINKING THIS LOVE WILL NEVER END .
BUT UNTIL THAT DAY ; YOU SAID LET'S BREAK .
THE THINGS WE HAD JUST FADED ; IT WAS TOO HARD FOR ME TO TAKE .
I BROKE DOWN ; I WONDERED WHY .
MY TEARS JUST DRIPPED INTO MY HEART ; I JUST COULDN'T CRY .
HOWEVER I HAD THAT HOPE ; OF YOU COMING BACK ONE DAY .
' ZHIYANG LET'S START AGAIN ' ; THAT'S WHAT YOU WILL SAY .
BUT THAT WASN'T MEANT TO BE ;
YOU ARE WITH ANOTHER GUY ; IN FRONT OF ME .
I REFUSED TO BELIEVE ; THAT IT WAS TRUE .
THE PAIN I WENT THROUGH ; WHO KNEW .
SHOULD I WAIT OR SHOULD I STAY ?
I'M SO CONFUSED ; I LOST MY WAY .
ALL I COULD DO IS TO WAIT FOR YOU TILL YOU CHANGE YOUR MIND ;
REMEMBER ME ; I'M ALWAYS BEHIND .
I LOVED YOU ALL ALONG .
31 DAYS ; STILL WAITING .
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9:05 AM
AFTER WORK WAITING FOR MRT TO GO TO HER PLACE . REFLECTIONS . ((:THE BLOOD I SHED FOR YOU ; CAN IT BRING YOU BACK ?
THE SCAR REMINDS US THAT THE PAST IS REAL .
didn't post for ytd ; ps . too tired and messed up barhs ; never thought of switching on the com . valentine's dayy ytd ; pretty sucky this yr barhs . especially this year hahas . left her the present outside her house ; because nobody answered the door ; so ii just left it at her door handle . she told me about the present ; what a sigh of relief ! thought she didn't receive the present or the present is being taken away by other people or something . xx= after meeting joseph and caine bro at bugis ; we went bugis street for shopping . ii only bought a pair of slip shoes ; with skully designs . thought my father will disapprove ; but he never say anything . phew . nothing much to sayy lerhs ; tomorrow meeting kenn hia di wees . bye peeps ; happy chinese new year in advance . ((:
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
VALENTINE'S DAY IS COMING SOON ; SO SIIANS .
peeps are talking about it ;
thinking of what to buy for their adore ones .
some proposed their love to the ones they secretly admired ;
some spent the whole day with their loved ones .
people keep asking me about valentine's day ;
ii said nothing or pretend ii never hear anything .
deep inside my heart ; ii was hurting .
wanna scream ; CAN YOU STOP ASKING ME THIS QUESTION ?
nobody can see the scars ; the pain ii am undergoing through .
ii tried to make you turn back to me ; but did you ?
WHERE IS YOUR HEART ?
HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN EVERYTHING WE ONCE HELD TIGHT TOGETHER ;
THE PROMISES ; THE MEMORIES ;
YOU SHATTERED THEM ALL BY YOURSELF .
I REMBERED WHAT YOU TOLD ME ;
I HELD ON ; WHAT HAPPENED ?
MY LIFE IS STILL IN A MESS ;
YOU LEFT ME SCARRED .
BACK TO DARKNESS .
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2:19 AM
didn't post for a long time ; being busy . hahas nobody will be looking anyway ; so many shyt happened . ii went hospital for my checkup ; my low blood pressure may just happen anytime ; and ii may just collapse and faint like that . life is short ; ii have to admit . my handphone bill exploded like fcuk ; one hundred and thirty two dollars ; lol . my hard earned pay have to use to pay for the bill . haven't even settle my expenses ; give half of my pay ; my new handphone . =.=" going to get my ATM card soon ; wees . ((:
09/02/2007 . THE EXCITING MOMENT of my life . after work ; ii went home ; prepared myself into uniform attire ; den went to meet caine and friends for lunch before going back to school for my result . my mother was outside the hall ; monk's hill batch seems to be doing better than us for O's . ii was one of the last few to collect my results ; because of my hair . make me so nervous larhs ; hahas . =xX at last it was my turn ; ii saw my result : ii gort 18 for my L1R4 ; thought ii could have done better . ii was eligible for the audio and visual technology course ; ii dun know whether ii cann go in . tomorrow is the last day for registation for poly courses ; guess ii better stayy at home and seriously consider my choices carefully . my supervisor arranged miie off for today .
went to LIMQI's birthday last sunday ; saw BABY TEARS . nothing much to write down . ((:
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AFTER WORK WAITING FOR MRT TO GO TO HER PLACE . REFLECTIONS . ((:
