Saturday, January 20, 2007

siiansati0n ; t0dayy w0ke up at three pluss . haiis ; still can't get 0ver herr ; having the h0pe she will c0me backk t0 me . very jia lat arghs ; feel s0 fcuked up . w0rk was n0rmal ; went t0 withdraw the 0ne hundred and fifty d0llars fr0m the bank . den ii met kenneth hia di at cineleisure at 0ne plus ; den caine br0 came al0ng at tw0 thirty . slacked and slacked ; until kenneth's gan-mummy BIBI and herr friend came t0 meet us . we went d0wn t0 bugis at three plus ; met s0me 0f kenneth's friends at the arcade . s0 many pe0ple knew ii was upset ; all cheered miie up . THANKS HIA DI'S ! ( : met joseph ; wakakas we all the wh0le bugis area ; ji sia0ing 0ne an0therr and walking the wh0le place as if it is 0urs . saw many friendster peeps ; XIAOJESS ; XIAOBOI ; CHLOE and 0therrs . XIAOJESS dunch seems t0 see miie ; alth0ugh ii am in fr0nt 0f herr . perhaps ii lo0k different in herr eyes because ii wear spects ? x= played rock fever ; die like siiao xia . =.= Joseph keep taking and wearing my cap ; sayy lo0ks very co0l and cute 0n him . he als0 want t0 b0rr0w my cap f0r 0ne dayy ; ROFL . saw XIAOJESS AND XIAOBOI togetherr ; s0 sweet ! haiis ; 0nce agaiin it c0mes backk and haunt miie . perhaps miie and ah kenn have the same life barhs ; all s0 thi0ngxim ; in the end wadd happened . lo0ks like we are all l0ners and victims barhs ; pe0ple keep saying miie 0f being t0o go0d and giving the best 0f everything f0r l0ve ; ii was the last kind 0f guyy 0n earth . my m0ther seems t0 see miie depressed agaiin ; but ii hide it fr0m herr agaiin . i feel s0 miserable ; despite XIAOFANG and the 0thers cheering miie up . THANKS GUYS ! ii try my best . ) : t0m0rr0w g0ing Rain's c0ncert with ZHIWEN ; his steadd b0 acc0mpany him . h0pe ii cann enj0y myself denn . x=

WILL ANYONE CARE IF I LEFT THIS WORLD ?

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Thursday, January 18, 2007

HMMMS ; n0thing much happened t0dayy . th0ughts 0f herr flo0ding my head right n0w ; quite distracted t0dayy . SHE IS THE ONE I REALLY LOVE ! heard fr0m herr friend that she is staying at herr place ; at least that is a relief . next week is g0nna be 0ur third m0nth ; my mindd is in a mess n0w . I AM WILLING TO DO ANYTHING FOR HER TO COME BACK ; SHE IS THE ONE I REALLY NEED TILL THE END .

THEY SAID THAT I AM THE LAST GUYY OF THAT KIND ON EARTH . I DON'T CARE ; NO MATTER WHAT NOTHING STOPS MY HEART FROM LOVING YOU .

为你活了下来决定疯狂的爱没有遗憾

不会停的阻碍全是悲哀无奈拼了命也要去爱你

我们许下同一个心愿就是能够永远不被分离

受够嘲笑的声音我把生命给了你

先放弃的未来宁愿一生等待痛快的爱

这段故事完美结局

带着你的勇气不再离去

多苦多痛的爱这一次拼了命也要在一起

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Wednesday, January 17, 2007

it's been 0ne dayy ; and ii still haven't heard fr0m hazel yet . haiish ; ii am really w0rried ab0ut herr . ii l0gged in t0 friendster ; and kn0w that she viewed my pr0file ! she is 0kayy ! what a relieve ; ii keep having th0ughts that ii saw the newspaper that .... arghs ; dun wann sayy . TOUCH WOOD ! t0dayy went t0 w0rk as per n0rmal ; think ii wasn't c0ncentrating t0dayy ; ii didn't kn0w the flo0r was slippery ; ii slipped and alm0st fell ; and br0ke the cupps and plates . x= many pe0ple knew ab0ut what happened ; and c0ns0led miie . later 0n the b0tt0m ii g0nna write my decati0ns t0 all 0f y0uu ; thanks pe0ple ! =D ten 0' cl0ck ii must switch 0ff c0m lerhs ; siians ; T.T . n0thing much ab0ut t0dayy ; my m0ther ask agaiin ii lo0k very depressed since ytd . ii hide it fr0m herr agaiin ; dun wanna talk ab0ut it .

TO THESE PEOPLE WHO ARE THERE FOR ME ( SINCE SUNDAY . )

BRENDA MEI
YANYING MUMMY
JASPER DADDY
XIAOBOY DI
BIBI NUER
XIAOFANG
KITTY MEI
CAINE BRO

THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME ; I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU GUYYS ! X)

Additi0nal dedicati0ns ( :

Brenda meii . ( : thanks f0r being there f0r miie since sundayy ; ii kn0w we haven't been sleeping well since sundayy ; w0rrying f0r hazel . dunch w0rrie ; ii am g0nna h0ld 0n f0r Hazel . ii believe we are g0nna hear fr0m her ; she will be backk . mine and herr fairytale are g0nna c0ntinue ; ii believe the ending 0f the m0vie ii saw in my dream will c0me truee . x)

LAOPO I HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON ; COME BACKK TO MY SIDE . I MISSED THOSE SINGING WE HAD TOGETHER ; THOSE SWEET AND PRECIOUS MEMORIES ; NOBODY CAN EVER TAKE THEM AWAY .

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

LAOPO I HOPE YOU ARE SEEING THIS ; I'M GONNA KEEP HOLDING ON . OUR FAIRYTALE WILL CONTINUE ; I WILL STAY STRONG FOR YOUU . NOTHING CAN CHANGE DESTINY ; WHATEVER HAPPENS WE WILL FACE IT TOGETHER . I AM HERE FOR YOU WHENEVER YOU NEED ME ; HOLD MY HAND ; I PROMISE I'M GONNA WALK WITH YOU TILL THE END . <>

I MEAN IT ; I LOVE YOU . ( :

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Tuesday, January 16, 2007

this maybe the darkest m0ment in my life ; haiish . ) : a little update ab0ut yesterday night ; the m0st sh0cking part ; hazel cann0t be c0ntacted . i dun kn0w whether she ran away fr0m h0me 0r s0methingg ; ii'm damn w0rried ; until n0w . didn't really sleep a wink fr0m last night until n0w ; can't believe ii still can be writing this p0st rights ? x=

[[ t0dayy -15/01/2006 . ) : ]

at seven fifteen ; ii went t0 w0rk as usual ; with a w0rried and nerv0us heart . haiish ; ii finished w0rk ; called brenda meii but she at scho0l ; her parents having the hp . ii decided t0 lo0k her up at her h0use ; but n0b0dy was there . ii went backk t0 wo0dlands interchange ; g0ing t0 yi0 chu kang mrt ; maybe brenda cann meet miie there and h0pefully hazel is with herr . end up brenda cann0t g0 0ut and meet miie ; ii decided t0 g0 h0me . when ii call brenda ( finally . x= ) ; she tell miie hazel is still n0t with herr . my heart sank ; g0nna break d0wn so0n ; after the m0ment ii receive that sms . she t0ld miie she want t0 break with miie temp0rary ; f0r a few weeks . she said she need silence t0 retreive her line ; and when she is back to n0rmal she will be with miie again . i'm g0nna trust herr ; 0ur pr0mises and tw0 m0nth plus relati0nship ; she ain't g0nna shatter destr0y all 0f that in fr0nt 0f miie . she w0n't make my w0rld greyscale agaiin when she was the 0ne wh0 made mine c0l0urful . cause that is what inner sense t0ld miie ; but right n0w ii just pray that she is fine . when my m0ther ask miie h0w was t0dayy ; ii lied t0 herr . she seems t0 kn0w ii'm mo0dy ; and ask miie ab0ut it . ii t0ld herr n0thing happened ; hiding that lie inside my heart .

I CAN'T BREATHE EASY
CAN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT ; TILL YOU ARE MY SIDE .
OUT OF MY MIND ; NOTHING MAKES SENSE ANYMORE .
I WANT YOU BACKK ; THAT'S ALL I'M BREATHING FOR .
YOU MADE ME REALISE I AM NOTHING WITHOUT YOU;
ALL THE PROMISES II SAID ; I'M MEAN IT .
CURSE ME INSIDE FOR THE THINGS I DONE TO MAKE YOU CRY ;
CURSE ME A THOUSAND TIMES ; I'M WILLING TO DO ANYTHING .
ANYTHING SO LONG YOU ARE BY MY SIDE ;
I PROMISE .

# TELL ME YOU ARE SAFE ; WHERE ARE YOU ? I'M MISSING AND WORRYING FOR YOU BADLY ; NOTHING MATTERS ANYMORE SO LONG YOU ARE SAFE AND SOUND .

I LOVE YOU ; I'M GONNA CHERISH YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE .

I REALLY MEAN IT .

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Sunday, January 14, 2007

I PROMISE . <3

here's an0therr p0st ; ab0ut t0dayy's happenings . ( : siians ; my parents and br0thers came backk t0 singap0re . want them stayy away l0ngerr ; ii like veri hei xin like thats . x= t0dayy went t0 w0rk ; 0mg . the place is s0 fully -packed ; ii was s0 busy ii litterally fell asleep the m0ment ii b0arded the buss . w0rk f0r 5 h0urss full f0rce at the t0ast p0siti0n ; when there is n0 cust0mers ii c0uld 0nly take a 'sh0rt' break in the kitchen . ate a few breadtalk de fo0d ; nice sehx . l0l ; fatty piggie ? my metab0lism rate is high ; g0sh . that is the reas0n whye ii dun put 0n any weight when ii eat to0 much ; 0ne example will be last yr . ii keep g0ing t0 starr cruise every week ; keep eating s0 much but still like remain 0n the same weight . =DD den when ii was eating ; 0ne 0f the bakers at breadtalk played the s0ng ' My Humps " . l0l ; den 0ne baker dun kn0w ; pr0n0unce as 'Mai Hum ' . ROFL . den we all sing 'Mai Hum' ; s0 funny sehx . saw the taggb0ard ; le0n wr0te 0n my bl0g ? h0w did he kn0w mye bl0g ? wh0 knew . t0dayy tried t0 msg and call la0p0 ; den she msg miie herr m0ther is at h0me . ii msg herr few times but she b0 replyy . herr m0therr is at h0me - 0ur lives are similar s0meh0w . h0pe ii cann see her t0m0rr0w 0r any dayys 0f the week . alth0ugh ii am w0rried f0r herr s0meh0w ; but ii believe n0thing will happen t0 herr . guess ii missed herr to0 much ; can't wait f0r t0m0rr0w . ii c0uld lo0k f0r herr den . ( :

# OUR LIVES ARE THE SAME SOMEHOW ; THIS IS FATE - WE ARE TOGETHER ; YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BOO . <3

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TAKEN BEFORE WORK TODAYY .

MY LAOPO ACTING CUTE . NAHHS ; NOT ACTING CUTE . BEING MORE CUTE ? SHE'S THE CUTTEST . ;P

ME AND LAOPO ; SWEETIES PIGGIES COUPLE ; TILL THE END. <3

SIANSATION ? SCRIBBLING OVER THE PAPER .

wees ; t0dayy seems t0 pass by very quickly . =x my parents and br0 went t0 cruise ; hav0c time ? ;p w0ke up at 7 t0dayy ; g0rt ready and set 0ff f0r w0rkk . t0dayy very busy nerhx ; dun even have a time f0r a breather . s0 many typical cust0mers ; even the angm0s . LOL . after w0rk ii and la0p0 chatted 0n sms . she t0ld miie thatt her m0ther and sister n0t in singap0re ; kakas . after w0rk ii decided t0 g0 t0 herr placee ; give herr a surprise . arghs ; when ii came backk fr0m cineleisure my parents never even call backk t0 check . sh0uld have peii my la0p0 l0ngerr ; neverr mindd . cann see her next week anywayy . =DD d0ne s0 many things at her place ; saw vassantham central . ROFL . breakfast =x . listen t0 s0ngs 0n la0p0's hp ; sang liang shan b0 and zhu ying tai and w0 ke yi t0getherr . ahhhs . x) are the pictures en0ugh t0 sh0w what we d0ne in herr place ? hahas ; 0nly miie and herr kn0w very well . [[= after g0ing t0 la0p0's place ; went t0 cineleisure t0 meet XIAOBOY di . met his gan mummy als0 ; all s0 funny sehx . d0wn there theyy all check 0ut CHIOBUS and YANDAOS ; l0l . den went t0 BK t0 eat and played po0l . actually wanna stayy at la0p0's place f0r 0ne night ; but herr m0ther and sis c0ming backk ; due t0 the flo0d in malaysia . my parents and br0s will be backk t0m0rr0w at ard 11am at singap0re . SIIANSATION ; ii better prepare th0se ears f0r their nagging . =/ g0nna catch s0me sleep n0w ; go0d nights . [[=

OUR SONG ; AISHITERU . < 3

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你

为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就能够让我们相偎相依

我爱你你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱永远不放开
i love you
我爱你你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着未来

为什么你还是不言不语不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

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