this maybe the darkest m0ment in my life ; haiish . ) : a little update ab0ut yesterday night ; the m0st sh0cking part ; hazel cann0t be c0ntacted . i dun kn0w whether she ran away fr0m h0me 0r s0methingg ; ii'm damn w0rried ; until n0w . didn't really sleep a wink fr0m last night until n0w ; can't believe ii still can be writing this p0st rights ? x=
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at seven fifteen ; ii went t0 w0rk as usual ; with a w0rried and nerv0us heart . haiish ; ii finished w0rk ; called brenda meii but she at scho0l ; her parents having the hp . ii decided t0 lo0k her up at her h0use ; but n0b0dy was there . ii went backk t0 wo0dlands interchange ; g0ing t0 yi0 chu kang mrt ; maybe brenda cann meet miie there and h0pefully hazel is with herr . end up brenda cann0t g0 0ut and meet miie ; ii decided t0 g0 h0me . when ii call brenda ( finally . x= ) ; she tell miie hazel is still n0t with herr . my heart sank ; g0nna break d0wn so0n ; after the m0ment ii receive that sms . she t0ld miie she want t0 break with miie temp0rary ; f0r a few weeks . she said she need silence t0 retreive her line ; and when she is back to n0rmal she will be with miie again . i'm g0nna trust herr ; 0ur pr0mises and tw0 m0nth plus relati0nship ; she ain't g0nna shatter destr0y all 0f that in fr0nt 0f miie . she w0n't make my w0rld greyscale agaiin when she was the 0ne wh0 made mine c0l0urful . cause that is what inner sense t0ld miie ; but right n0w ii just pray that she is fine . when my m0ther ask miie h0w was t0dayy ; ii lied t0 herr . she seems t0 kn0w ii'm mo0dy ; and ask miie ab0ut it . ii t0ld herr n0thing happened ; hiding that lie inside my heart .
I CAN'T BREATHE EASY CAN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT ; TILL YOU ARE MY SIDE . OUT OF MY MIND ; NOTHING MAKES SENSE ANYMORE . I WANT YOU BACKK ; THAT'S ALL I'M BREATHING FOR . YOU MADE ME REALISE I AM NOTHING WITHOUT YOU; ALL THE PROMISES II SAID ; I'M MEAN IT . CURSE ME INSIDE FOR THE THINGS I DONE TO MAKE YOU CRY ; CURSE ME A THOUSAND TIMES ; I'M WILLING TO DO ANYTHING . ANYTHING SO LONG YOU ARE BY MY SIDE ; I PROMISE .
# TELL ME YOU ARE SAFE ; WHERE ARE YOU ? I'M MISSING AND WORRYING FOR YOU BADLY ; NOTHING MATTERS ANYMORE SO LONG YOU ARE SAFE AND SOUND .
I LOVE YOU ; I'M GONNA CHERISH YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE .
I REALLY MEAN IT .
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ME
ZHIYANG
SIXTEEN GOING SEVENTEEN .
FOURTEEN MARCH 1990.
SIMPLE LIFE.
FREEDOM.
NIGHT LIFE AND HIA DI'S.
